Panic, Fear, Worry... Yep. Must be cycling.

The best thing about not getting my mail until 5pm, is that if there's a problem that shows up in the mail, I can't deal with it until the next day. Normally that's not a problem. A bill here, an EOB there... but yesterday it was something else.

My calendar.

Sample IVF calendar

You would think that for someone who has already done this twice, my calendar wouldn't strike fear in me, but it raised questions of procedure changes since my last cycle and now I'm terrified. I needed so desperately for everything this cycle to be EXACTLY the same as the one that worked, and already so many things are different. I have to use a different pharmacy. It's a different embryologist (a better one, so this works in my favor ;) ), a different in house acupuncturist, so I have to travel now... and now a different technique. It's scary for me. I'm scared the slightest change will make the outcome different.

I have an appointment for my baseline ultrasound today. Poor Dr Z doesn't know about the barrage of questions that is coming his way.

Stay tuned....