I can't be the only one. Not by a long shot.
Today is 11w6d, which is an interesting anniversary of sorts. With Smudge, at 11w6d, I started bleeding. I'll never forget shaking like a leaf, calling Smudge's Dad and then my nurse. Then my emergency u/s where I could breathe when I still saw her heart beating.
Sub-chorionic hematoma AKA the scariest day of my life. The day I thought I was losing her, just like I lost her twin.
And today, in the face of my newly surfaced pregnancy nightmares, I'll spend the day waiting for the other shoe to drop.
Tomorrow is my NT scan. Between my age, my egg quality, my nightmares, my teething toddler and my lack of sleep, I just need it to get here already.
um yeah...you certainly are NOT alone! I check every. single. time. Good luck tomorrow sweetie! Update us asap, ok!? I just scheduled my own for two weeks from today, so I know exactly how you are feeling...hoping to take that big sigh of relief afterwards! (((HUGS))))
ReplyDeleteI'm soooo happy that you're pregnant. <3
DeleteOh, goodness....When I was pregnant, I checked the paper every single time (and I bled through my first trimester). After having my daughter, I still checked every single time (and I'm a little over a year out from having her!). Looking for blood when there's not supposed to be any, hoping for AF when not pg to come without meds....it's enough to make you crazy, isn't it?
ReplyDeleteHa!!! I"m 36 weeks and I STILL check the toilet paper. I wonder if I"ll actually stop after giving birth now that it's been a daily habit for almost 9 months.
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